Am I fucking up? Am I fucking up again?
Maybe someday I'll know. Maybe I'll never know.
You said I was your home, but you don't live here anymore
I should have let you go. I should have let you go.
A daydream, turned to a nightmare that I have every day
But now I'm awake
I am awake
And for your sake I will pretend that I am fine
I will be polite and welcoming
But your lasting effects still hit me now
I can't get "I love you" out of my throat, and I am drowning
I want to protect you from everything
But you are everything that I need to be protected from