I can't keep thinking, can't keep ignoring
Going through motions, feel like I know them
Harbor a grudge I can't think to let go of
Nothing sticks nothing leaves any trace
You make me wish that you hadn't come up to haunt me
I'm no halfway house
But you treat me like a sorry excuse, you deserve to be happy but I do too
Notes and notes that I've kept
I keep lying to myself, that you haven't left but you're not here
Shell of a boy you made for yourself
Years ago you'd reserved my hell
And you know
What you've done
"You're getting closer" you tell me
Is that the way this goes
Whose side are you on
Why can't you just let me know?
I wish you loved yourself
The way that I always loved you
Why can't I get it
Through this thick skull
That this is through
Notes and notes that I've kept
I keep lying to myself, that you haven't left but you're not here
Shell of a boy you made for yourself
Years ago you'd reserved my hell
And you know
What you've done
Make me retreat into myself, just like you told me
Leave me alone but not all at once
I'm selfish the way you taught me to be
Cut me open, let me drain out
Hold a heart that beats for you
What do you get when you come up with nothing?
You get left out. You get left in the dark.
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